he's sleeping on my couch.
he came over, once my mom left for her night shift,
we drank with Cousin.
the feelings poured out of both of us,
we cuddled
and
kissed.
And talked about our feelings and I
told him we
couldn't
date
and explained about Kyle
and he told me
he'd wait for me
because im the only one he wants to be with
because
he cares most about me
because
"I'm worth it"
and I just. I want to date him, I really do.
I want to hold hands and go on dates.
But I love Kyle. And I don't want to lose him.
choose Kyle, lose good company with Ian,
choose Ian, lose everything with Ky.
im so confused >.<
Hm.
ReplyDeleteWhat direction
does your
heart face?
Oh dear,
ReplyDeletethat always changes.
It's hard to keep up with.
It shouldn't
ReplyDeletechange if
you love
only one
of them.
Love
is more
infallible
than
company
if not
at
all.
I do only love one of them though,
ReplyDeleteand that's why it's so odd for me,
the fact that I have to decide between love and company.
Because I already know my answer.
it's always love.
always.
I suppose lust
and attraction
also play a roll.
I wish there was an
"all of the above"
bubble to fill in.
or a different way
that didn't involve hurt,
on at least two, if not all, of the parties.
I have formed my own jar,
and now I am in a pickle.