The Feelings Monster

it's after me.

I don't want them.

I just want to shake them all off and stomp on those dang feelings.

I like the way things are with Ian.

I don't want him catching on to my feelings monster,

because I don't want him to get feelings,

because I don't want us to even have to talk about anything feelings related.

I fucking love spending time with him.

I love it to pieces.

I don't want it to be ruined or become awkward,

because I just love being around him.

I just can't help feeling jealous of other people though,

and happy when I say something an he looks at me in amazement.

I love making him smile,

making him laugh.

I like feeling like a little happy ball that he gets to keep in his back pocket.

And I love how we can watch a movie together in a dark room and not have anything weird.

I love everything that makes up our friendship,

and I'm so scared the stupid feelings monster is gonna ruin it.